so stressed out about sla roots =_=;
i left the meeting def. not feeling bueno about this event. fuck it tho, i said i am not caring about this anymore. and at least now we’re getting catered food.
i was so sweaty and exhausted when i walked into the house a couple seconds ago, and it’s funny how i always dread - im talking drag my feet into meetings with folks but i always come out inspired and excited.
anywhoozle, this week a lot of folk have been making predictions about me. a customer came in whose husband does chinese astrology, and told me that this was my year.. as a person with the year of the snake. said i was strong, sexy, and intelligent - i’m the one who plans (true) and if you didn’t help me get there, you ain’t getting shit (somehwat true).
at my south la roots meeting one of my committee members said he doesn’t predict me being a nurse for very long - said that i’ll get sick of it and that he sees me working in public health policy, somewhere “up there” making changes.
a lot of folks said i’ve been doing good work latley - and it’s crazy because i haven’t heard that in so long. that reminds me of my undergraduate days when showing up at any event garnered a compliment. in retail, i’ve learned that there are no compliments, just ‘do better’ ‘be better’ .. thank you’s are empty and really only said in passing when you’re handing a plastic bag to a customer, i forgot how powerful it was when folks say ‘you’re going to do great things,’ ‘you’re going to go somewhere’ ‘you’re going to be ‘up there”
i just think it’s interesting, and i’m not complaning, in fact thank you folks for the thought. it made me think about myself a lot more, made me wonder if these predictions would be true.. i was just watching the great and powerful oz last night about a guy from kansas who became great , and only doubted himself.. so i wonder are these all signs? [beyond the irritating man focused message that there were three powerful ass women in the story, but the one man that knew jackshit teleported into their land he knew nothing about saved the day].
i’m hopeful for the future, and i’m ready to start making changes. but before that, i got tons of shit to do for this south la roots group.
